Betrayal

Just yesterday I was telling you all my greatest hopes and dreams,
But today, you are nothing to me anymore,
No longer a friend I can tell all my secrets to,
You're crap to me,
You're dead to me,
I hate you, but I hurt because of the betrayal I feel.

Friendship

Friendship...
Is when you have eachother's backs on anything and everything.
When you can spill your heart out to them and they'll listen.
When you know you can trust them no matter what.
When they can make you smile even when it's the worst part of your life.
Or when they tell you what's up when you're screwing up.
When you can cry on their shoulder for hours and they won't care.
Or when you're sick and they hold your hair while you puke into the toilet bowl.

The Irony Of Life Is That The Moment You Are Born, You Are Destined To Die.

An Interpretation Of My Poem, The Forest

I wrote this poem because The Forest refers to something important to me.
It's an important symbol in my life and dreams lately.

The Forest itself- I'm running through it, trying to save him.
The Fog- I'm not exactly sure.
Talking to me or calling for me- When I try to talk and he won't listen or he won't talk about it or he answer me.
Holding Me Still and Tieing Me Down- Things holding me back, jealousy or pain maybe, or things in between us.
Suffocating Me- Pain.
Love Can't Just Vanish- When you told me that in one day, you didn't think you loved me anymore.
That was Bull.

The Forest

I cry and I cry but this fog never seems to lift.
I don't know where I am.
This forest is unknown to me.
I try to break through the forest into a clearing to find you...
But I can't find your promises.
They're lost,
Somewhere deep in the chambers of my locked heart...
Of your locked heart...
This forest is here,
So our love must be, too.
I just need to find some way to unlock the hidden chambers of your heart now.
But how can I when I may have locked away the key myself.
How can I know if you won't talk to me,
Won't call for me...
I can see the moon...
The stars in the sky,
But the fog is still around me,
It's blocking my vision,
So I call out to you,
But you don't answer me back...
I feel lost...
Alone...
Afraid...
And I can't complete my journey to you if this haze is holding me still
and tieing me down,
Holding my head under the water,
Suffocating me,
I can't breath...
But will you run to save me,
Like all the times before?
Love can't vanish like I hope for the fog...
You can't vanish...

Anathema

My cheeks are stained with dry tears that fell nearly an hour ago.
Yet I still cry.
I can't believe this is happening to me.
Why? I don't know.
I have no clue whatsoever why God chose me to play this harsh part.
To make me stronger?
To help me get over him, because it's been so long?
I do not know why I live the life of an anathema...
I don't even know how to deal with my so-called tragedies...
I hear them say they care,
but they still seem like just whispers in the wind now.

Unnamed...help me name it please

I can't believe that it's almost Christmas time already...
It seems as if my life is just passing by...
The days blur together,
Sometimes I feel like it's the day before,
Like it's yesterday.
It's all this bad luck,
It isn't good for me.
It's been a whole month of bad luck and it feels like it's still coming on strong.
I don't know what to do anymore.
My life is falling apart...
I'm falling apart...
It's all just...falling...

MY FIRST KNITTED HAT!!!

This is my first knitted hat! And...even better...its a slouchy hat!!! :) I used the Knifty Knitters Kit and made it for my friend Shula! :)

The Harold Song

This song is one of my songs now, and one of my new favorite songs...Tells a story...and it tells part of mine...it's Ke$ha's song tho...hope you like it :)

"The Harold Song"

I miss your soft lips, I miss your white sheets

I miss the scratch of your unshaved face on my cheek

And this is so hard 'cuz I didn't see

That you were the love of my life and it kills me

I see your face in strangers on the street

I still say your name when I'm talking in my sleep

And in the limelight, I play it off fine

But I can't handle it when I turn off my night light

But I can't handle it when I turn off my night

They say that true love hurts, well this could almost kill me

Young love murder, that is what this must be

I would give it all to not be sleeping alone

The life is fading from me while you watch my heart bleed

Young love murder, that is what this must be

I would give it all to not be sleeping alone

I remember the time we jumped the fence when

The Stones were playing and we were too broke to get in

You held my hand and they made me crawl

I swear to God it was the best night of my life

Or when you took me across the world

We promised that this would last forever but now I see

It was my past life, a beautiful time

Drunk off of nothing but each other 'til the sunrise

Drunk off of nothing but each other 'til the sunrise

They say that true love hurts, well this could almost kill me

Young love murder, that is what this must be

I would give it all to not be sleeping alone

The life is fading from me while you watch my heart bleed

Young love murder, that is what this must be

I would give it all to not be sleeping alone

It was a past life, a beautiful time

Drunk off of nothing but each other 'til the sunrise

They say that true love hurts, well this could almost kill me

Young love murder, that is what this must be

I would give it all to not be sleeping alone

The life is fading from me while you watch my heart bleed

Young love murder, that is what this must be

I would give it all to not be sleeping alone