Stars

Twinkling
In the distance.
Little Stars that shine bright
So you can see their echo
Through the night.
My love for them,
and the curiosity i have about them,
How they're so beautiful.
It puts a Smile on my face to see the stars.
I always look for the Big Dipper.
How proud it makes me feel to be an Alaskan is...
Undescribable.
Just like their Glow.
I always look up and wonder...
What would it be like to touch the moon?
To be able to gaze at their beauty from a closer distance.
To watch a shooting star pass just above you.
To wish upon a star that you can feel the warmth from.
To have the wish from the stars come true.
Think About It... And next time, Smile at the stars. :)

Proud

Ok...so I'm a Latter-Day Saint...I go to the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter-Day Saints. Some of you may know it as being Mormon. Well in my church, you aren't supposed to drink Caffeine. Well there is DEFINITELY Caffeine in Red Bull! haha Anyways...today my dad let me and my brother split a Red Bull...and it was a BIG Red Bull...It was probably a 12 or 16 oz. Can. I was excited! I LOVE Red Bull! So my brother split it equally into our own cups and we sat down to eat dinner. I took a sip...YUM....but when I took another sip...something felt wrong.......I felt like if my parents looked at me I was going to get in HUGE trouble....well kinda like that...but I also felt like it was...I don't know, wrong maybe....and also like I should NOT be doing it. so I got up...walked over to my brother....and said,"Here." and went and sat back down again. I felt the Spirit sooo strong at that moment...I felt like I did the other day when I used $2 and bought one of those balloons to write my name on and Donate Presents for Kids who needed them or for Kids who didn't get presents on Christmas. I felt sooo good, and my eyes filled up with tears as I looked at my brother drinking it...and I was thankful for the gospel being in my life and for being strong enough to resist the temptation of Caffeine. I am truly PROUD of myself...I feel sooo good STILL... :)

TUTTI!!! :3

A picture i did with watercolor pencils for one of my besties...TUTTI!!! :)
Hope u like it cuz its going IN your locker Monday morning! haha :)

Falling

I feel like I’m trying but no one else does.
I feel like I’m loving but no one needs to be loved.
I feel like I’m falling and there’s no one to catch me.
I feel like I need to scream at him,
“Don’t make someone fall if you’re not going to catch them!
You made ME fall and you did catch me, but you let me go
And threw me off the edge.
Then you caught me again.
Now I'm falling through space.”

(possibly improvising this)

Russian Roulette

Russian Roulette is one of my favorite songs right now. It's by Rihanna, as you can see. I do think it would be stupid to play Russian Roulette. But here are the lyrics. :) <3

"Russian Roulette"

Uh, uh [sound of taking breath]

[Verse 1]
Take a breath,
Take it deep.
'Calm yourself', He says to me
If you play, you play for keeps.
Take the gun and count to three.
Im sweating now,
Moving slow,
No time to think. My turn to go

[Hook]
And you can see my heart beating
You can see it through my chest.
Said I'm terrified but I'm not leaving
I know that I must pass this test
So, just pull the trigger

[Verse 2]
Say a prayer to yourself
He says 'close your eyes, sometimes it helps'
And then I get a scary thought
That he's here - means he's never lost

[Hook]
And you can see my heart beating.
No, You can see it through my chest.
Said I'm terrified but I'm not leaving
Know that I must pass this test.
So, just pull my trigger

[Bridge]
As my life flashes before my eyes
I'm wondering will I ever see another sunrise?
So many won't get the chance to say good-bye
But its too late to think of the value of my life

[Hook]
And you can see my heart beating.
No, You can see it through my chest.
Said I'm terrified but I'm not leaving no
know that I must pass this test.
You can see my heart beating.
Oh, You can see it through my chest.
I'm terrified but I'm not leaving no
know that I must pass this test.

So, just pull the trigger

[sound of taking a breath]
[sound of pulling the trigger. Gun shot]

It Smells Like You

I think you're worth the pain...

It smells like you.
Of how my life used to be.
How you used to hold me in your arms.
It smells like you.
Like when I was in love with you.
I still am.
The only difference is that now
You don't tell me you love me anymore.
I love it when it smells like you.
Then I remember all the amazing times we had.
Together.
Our first kiss.
When you held me in your arms in just the perfect way.
It's all coming back to me now.
I come around the corner into my Grandma's office,
where we all hang out.
And there you are.
Sitting on your stool in all your perfectness.
I catch my breath as you look up at me
and smile,
as I walk in the door.
Smiling back, Always.
I love it when I smell like you.

Speed Bumps

The Speed Bumps on the road

are just obstacles on

my journey to you.

Like Running through a forest

to get to you.

But I'll just slow

down and take it slow for now.

Because that is what I must do.

So I'll be here.

But I'll be your friend for a month.

And maybe then you'll realize,

you need me enough to love me again.

I don't know you anymore

Why does your face look so familiar?

I know your name,

but I don't know who you are anymore.

When you look at me with those eyes,

I still melt.

When I hear your name,

I still laugh and get butterflies.

When you talk to me and you laugh,

I still fall in love, again and again.

But I don't think I know who you are anymore.

December

December is hopefully going to be the latest, best part of my 2010 year.
These songs kind of tell you why.



"Back To December"

I'm so glad you made time to see me.
How's life? Tell me how's your family
I haven't seen them in a while.
You've been good, busier than ever,
We small talk, work and the weather,
Your guard is up and I know why.

'cause the last time you saw me
Is still burned in the back of your mind
You gave me roses and I left them there to die.

So this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you saying, "I'm sorry for that night",
And I go back to December all the time.
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you.
Wishing that I realized what I had when you were mine.
I'd go back to December, turn around and make it all right
I go back to December all the time.

These days I haven't been sleeping
Staying up playing back myself leavin'
When your birthday passed and I didn't call.
And I think about summer, all the beautiful times,
I watched you laughing from the passenger side.
Realized that I loved you in the fall

Then the cold came, the dark days when fear crept into my mind
You gave me all your love and all I gave you was "Goodbye"

So this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you saying, "I'm sorry for that night".
And I go back to December all the time.
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you,
Wishing that I realized what I had when you were mine.
I'd go back to December, turn around and change my own mind
I go back to December all the time.

I miss your tanned skin, your sweet smile, so good to me, so right
And how you held me in your arms that September night
The first time you ever saw me cry

Maybe this is wishful thinking,
Probably mindless dreaming,
If we loved again I swear I'd love you right...

I'd go back in time and change it but I can't.
So if the chain is on your door I understand.

But this is me swallowing my pride
Standing in front of you saying, "I'm sorry for that night"
And I go back to December...
It turns out freedom ain't nothing but missing you,
Wishing that I'd realize what I had when you were mine.
I'd go back to December, turn around and make it all right.
I'd go back to December, turn around and change my own mind

I'd go back to December all the time.
All the time

-Taylor Swift

Tricks

She had duped me!
I was fooled,
I had been fooled from the beginning.
I had trusted her,
And she had played me.
With her flirtatious smile
And her ice cold eyes.
I know I should have never told her anything.
But I had,
And she had used it against me.
For what reasons,
I’m still not sure.
But he loves her and not me.
But I love him and she doesn’t.
So why am I the only one that doesn’t get what I want?
Why did he make me fall when he caught me at first, but then let go later on?
Don’t make someone fall for you unless you’re ready to catch them.

I LOVE YOU.........

My heart is beating,

but its fading now.

In the land of my dreams,

I hear it.

When i hear your name it gets faster.

When i think of you.

The one i love.

When you say you love me,

I get butterflies.

When you tell me not to cry,

not to say those things,

tears spill down my cheeks.

But you tell me you're leaving.

I beg for you to stay.

For you to love me and not her.

I know im not her.

But im related to her.

Isn't that enough?

I ask if you ever really loved me,

if you ever meant it

when you said i love you babe,

and held me in your arms.

You say you meant everything.

Every word.

But you couldnt decide now.

Even tho she doesnt want you back,

you still want her.

But i want you more.

'I love you' I say every night as i go to sleep.

'Night' you say back.

But my heartbeat is fading.

I'm fading.

But what ever happened to,

I don't know,

But i'm with you.

You.

Isn't that what matters

And that I love you.

Shula........

I know we've had our good times and our bad times, mostly good :), but I just want to tell you........
That you're beautiful,
You're funny,
You're fun,
You're amazing,
You have a LOT of talent (of which I am VERY jealous) :),
And you're just THE best friend ANYONE could ever dream of.
I tried to find the perfect present for you, but I just couldn't find one.
So HAPPY BIRFDAY, LOVE!!!!!!!!!
I love you tons!!!!! :)
And I hope this shows it! :)
PS...I still am bringing your prezzy tomorrow haha :)
LOVE YA!!! :) <3
MaKayla Allysse Songer :) <3